Well I am now at 35 weeks and I have mixed emotions about my life right now. I know soon that my little bundle of joy will be here finally. Pregnancy has been hard this time, with everything considered, not to mention my son is only a year and a half, so I feel like I have been pregnant FOREVER! It will be a relief to finally see her face, kiss her cheeks, and smell her new baby smell. But a part of me is sad that I will no longer be able to protect her. My heart will no longer beat for her, and she will start her fight for survival. Not only will a little girl soon enter this world, she will also be my heart warrior. Although I am learning to put all of my faith and trust in God, the anticipation of what's to come is overbearing!
I love to feel her move & kick, validating that she is doing well. It was almost like she knew I wondered how she was and poked me to say" I'm ok mom". I have worried way too much about her, but never having a child with such a serious condition made me the most stressed I've ever felt. I have drove my husband absolutly crazy, but I love him even more for staying by my side!
I had another UVA visit today, and I expected to get a date to be induced. Instead they told me that they would like Aliyah to go to about 39 weeks, I don't see this being possible since both my daughter and son came early and my water broke with both. I am an hour and half away from UVA and I hope to not be on the interstate in labor!
I am 1 cm dialated and 35 weeks, I will be going on weekly visits now, so things may change accordingly. I know that she will be here in 3-4 weeks. Here it comes, the BIG day, Wow I can't believe it! Wish US LUCK!! : )
Oooh Good luck! I'll be praying for you. Don't induce unless there's a good medical reason- every day she has in there safe and sound makes her stronger and more ready for surgery and all she will go through.
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